during massages that I gave her..my mom hinting me that a girl is somewhat 'in love' with my husband..she told me before..but i ignored it..I even brave up myself asking my husbnd the que but the answer i'm receiving is, 'she not my type'..pretty much, my mom said that, probably now he felt nothing, but someday he wud fell for her as seeing i'm getting fattier n uglier everyday..
the fact is..my mother NEVER in her whole life said that i'm pretty.. and even when her friends said I am, she wud remind them that that I am actually an UGLY duckling in d family..n if u ask me, do u think that u r pretty? I have been pretty honest with almost everybody that i found absolutely nothing of me for people to be jealous of..I guess because it was planted in my head that I;m UGLY by my MOTHER every single day of my life..
u know..she justifies herself by telling that, if to her eyes i'm ugly@ fat @ yada2..she is right therefore there is the ABSOLUTE need for me to go get myself FIXED..rase xnk blk umah dah pun ade..
the truth is..yes, I agree I'm afraid to loose my husband to other man(eventhough now I feel that I'm married to the wrong person..I dnt feel like justifying to people why I say this) but, I am more afraid of being a forgotten muslim..( i realize, there are times u r happy wif ur gorgeous body that u tend to SHOW OFF to other people whom u r not supposed to show it too.) therefore, I'd rather be ugly..( in this context..being fat)
I have been out of my line job..n currently aimed to stay in this job..so that i can plan better for my future..so pretty much u can see i got OTHER things much more IMPORTANT than looking pretty..
tell me something..is it THAT important to be pretty?
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